Deepening The Connection With My Inner Priestess

These last days I’ve been starting to realise that in order to teach I need to find my Inner Priestess. Priestess is a feminine archetype and the part of us that has access to mystical realms and a great sense of intuition.

I’ve always had a connection to this part of me but because of being taught to let my life be guided by my mind, it’s still confusing for me to give authority to my intuition, especially in areas like career and financial success.

My Inner Priestess Understands The Importance of Intuition

However, these last years have shown me that my intelligence and rational thinking only lets me go so far. It’s a great tool but I can’t rely on it to make great decisions.

My mind has no awareness of the deeper truths of reality. But my intuition has. And my Inner Priestess is this part of me that fully understands that and thus centers her thinking, judgement and decision making around intuition.

The Priestess Sees Beyond

Now, I feel a calling to teach. It’s been something that I always enjoyed because I’m learning and understanding things deeper while I teach. Especially about relationships because although people have similar patterns, the individual stories are still different and that makes it exciting.

If you want to teach about deep topics you have to stand solid in your own truth. All my role models and women I admire have the quality of the priestess. They are strong yet feminine, wise yet kept their childlike wonder and humour.

They see beyond what is being presented to them. They see beyond the outer layer of personality into the heart of people. The Priestesses are aware that everyone is on a journey and that their role is to guide but never to carry. It’s not necessary because people are capable. So this is my journey now. Finding my own Inner Priestess.

The Priestess Does Not See Victims

In the past I’ve held the belief that people are poor and helpless and that I (oh, I!) need to rescue them. What a grandiose opinion I had about myself!

I have resources and they have not. I have support and they have not. But if you look at people through a tiny lens you will only ever see a small part of them. But that doesn’t mean that this is the reality.

Victimisation leads to learned helplessness. And I’m not saying that it isn’t important to fully acknowledge your trauma. Instead it is vital to understand when in fact you were a victim and had not control over what happened, like for example in childhood.

However, now as adults victimhood stops us from progressing. Although it might feel good in the moment it stops us from taking self responsibility for OUR PART when faced with a difficult situation or problem. In my podcast episode The Pitfalls of Victimhood I’m going deeper into this topic together with my husband Matt:

How We Co-Create Our Trauma

In trauma work your inner child needs to hear that what happened was not their fault and that the adults should have protected and not harmed the child. But after this work has been done and the wounds have been healed, there is another perspective to be gained which ultimately empowers you. And this is the awareness which part you did play in what has happened to you.

For example, one of my traumas in my childhood was that I felt my parents did not see my sensitivity and did not protect me enough from overstimulating environments and stressful people. But after doing trauma work and really understanding myself I realised that from a young age on I had created a very loud protector personality which was hiding (and still is) my sensitivity very well.

Protector Parts Hide Our Sensitivity

I made it hard for my parents to see the full scope of my sensitivity. And of course I’m not angry at my inner child because she didn’t know better and did the best she could. But I hope you can see how I co-created my trauma and how this knowledge now frees me.

If I’m able, even at such a young age, to create my experiences, how about now that I’m a grown adult with much great awareness? To me this awakens the sense of being able to do anything. I’m in charge of my life.

So, this will be the work of these next weeks. I want to find greater connection to my Inner Priestess and listen to her guidance. Writing these lines I feel a wonderful shift starting to happen …